Back to Air-Born and Emergen-C I guess.
Anyway. My emotions have been taking their toll lately - I'm tired and pissy and generally defeated. Which is not a good way to go through life. So I'm working on not being those things and focusing my energy on being happy and maybe just a little bit productive.
I had my first rehearsal for The Pillowman last night. It's gonna be a great show. I'm so, so excited. The work that I've put in already is astounding. Jenna, the director, is really putting me through my paces; making me think and move in new, foreign, sometimes uncomfortable ways. It's so good for me.
I've been debating whether or not to write about this, but it's such an essential part of my life. I hate the way I am around guys. It's generally pathetic and cold and aloof and scared. I don't know how to approach them, I don't know how to behave around them. I'm a fish out of water, flailing my way towards dry death. It's bad. Real bad. And I'm not sure how to work on it. Whitney? Whitney, you wanna offer me some sage advice so that your Mommy can bring the girls home a new Daddy?
so i tried to post a comment talking about how much i need to talk to you and how we should have a long phone call helping each other by talking things out when i accidentally hit the backspace and lost the whole message. anyways, the idea for a phone call still applies and I hope we have one soon.
ReplyDeletethings will work out... i know they will, even if im not sure whether that statement is intended to convince me or you. who knows? probably both of us.